I am currently in week 4 of my 5K training. This is a good thing. Today I ran 3, then 5 minute intervals, while last week I ran 7 straight minutes. (just to see what my current limit was)
But, I am at a low. I promised myself I wouldn't use this blog to put negativity in to the world, and I won't. But I am having a hard time. With the running increasing with no setbacks, I should be seeing other results, right? (lbs lost, inches lost) Well, no.
WHY!?@?!
So I shared my frustrations with Dan, my hubby, partner, confidant, and motivator. I told him that maybe I should just give up my goals, which I had thought were pretty darn realistic. I mean, I know my body and it's odd characteristics, so my goals seemed achievable. And, I am consistently at the gym. I stopped buying cookie ingredients, and there are no kid snacks that even pique my interest. So, again,
WHY?
I finally said that maybe I just need to learn to be happy with my larger self and that I am able to do all the things that I can: run for time, go to the gym because I like it, hike with a 18-pound baby on my back...
He told me to switch my focus to more positive thinking on things outside of myself. (basically, stop dwelling on my negative thoughts) Each day he reads from "The Book of Positive Quotations." Easy enough. (it sits in the bathroom) He advised me to read one, reflect on it, and relate it to my current situation until I get my own "Can-Do" attitude.
This one seems more than appropriate:
"I am the master of my fate; I am the captain of my soul." - William Ernest Henley
Reflecting, for a time.
Dan also told me that he would never give up me.
4 comments:
Hang in there. You're doing great and you can do it. We all know that.
I'm pretty convinced that my body does NOT like to be teeny tiny, but I'm also convinced that I like to be healthy. So, tough beans body. I won't aim for teeny tiny, but I will not give up on healthy.
When you do that 5k, whether you lost weight or not will hopefully matter less as you realize how great it is to be able to run like that!
Way to go!
What a great partner Dan is. Love this great advice from him! Hang in there! I just started Weight Watchers (again) and I'm committed to changing my body and my life. You can do it!
Yes Amy, I was never a size 6 or anything... :)
And I do love that I LOVE going to the gym, and being healthy. In fact, I hope that my new doc will tell me that all my bloodwork looks great when I see her in September. ('cause with PCOS there can be issues)
But, I don't want to give up on the idea of being the good and healthy size I was when I got married.
I guess good luck to us all with our healthy goals and endeavors.
In the words of Dory.."Just keep swimming"...or running as the case may be! You will be so proud of yourself when you cross that 5K finish line. I had the same issue, no matter how many times we trained a week for our race, I never saw a drop in pounds on the scale...It was frustrating, but I realized that I was building up my endurance. There was a noticable difference in my walk/run ratio from our first 5k, to our second. Have you tried taking any aerobic classes? Recently, I began taking some Zumba, kickboxing, and yoga classes at a local yoga studio. It's amazing how pumped up I feel after the cardio. (the other night I came home and cleaned out the garage after Zumba...LOL!) Plus, I've found the classes to be a lot of fun, even if I can only go once or twice a week. I have a hard time staying motivated if I have to trust myself to keep going on machines at the gym. Keep up the great work! :) Natalia
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